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How Did I Get Here?

 I suppose there are a million answers and excuses that I could give about how I reached this point in my life. But it really comes down to a perfect storm of emotional eating, stressful experiences and bad choices. Toss in some pregnancies. financial struggles and bad kness....and BOOM. Here we are. 

I know I am not alone. But here I am...41, SUPER overweight ( Think Ursula) struggling with my emotions and outlook on it all. 

Not a day goes by where I don't look in the mirror and hate what I see. Sure there are parts I like..my baby blues for instance. But overall, I don't look at myself and think...yep, I can keep looking like this. Of course, that issue comes down to a serious lack of confidence, struggles with seeing past my own criticisms and appreciating what God created. 

I love my life. I have a husband that I adore, 3 sons who are literally the best thing that I have ever accomplished. I am surrounded by some of the most amazing friends I have ever had. I have just landed my dream job, at my dream school with the best leader I could ask for. After 22 years of being together my husband and I have recently bought our very first home. 

But I suppose the reality is, it is time to make some changes. I can't stay like this....technically I can, but I won't be happy. I don't want to continue feeling like this, so it is time for a change. So, this blog...it's purpose is to chronicle this journey. The ups, the downs and the in betweens. Trust me....I am SURE there will be plenty of ALL of those. I will be as transparent as possible with this journey, which I believe is going to be the hardest part of all of this. 

So, buckle up. Stay tuned...or whatever. This is going to be a ride. 



xoxo

   

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