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The Battles

 The last 6 months have been nothing if not stressful. But that is not where my struggle with my weight begins....and it is not what led me to this journey either.  I feel like my battle with my weight has been one that I have had almost my entire life. Each time I start to make progress I hit a wall. Sometimes those walls are self imposed and other times those walls come in the form of other people. I was the girl who appeared older when one wanted to appear older....LOL. Hopefully that particular trait has stopped. I digress..... at 13 I looked 16...you get the picture. I remember a time when I was about 16 and working in a large retail store, I was in a good place health wise and well, I was fitting into clothes in the girls department. That was the same time in my life that I had to file a sexual harrassment complaint against a co worker.....and it was the first time that this attention led to a weight gain. Like most people I gained weight my freshman year in college, and...

How Did I Get Here?

 I suppose there are a million answers and excuses that I could give about how I reached this point in my life. But it really comes down to a perfect storm of emotional eating, stressful experiences and bad choices. Toss in some pregnancies. financial struggles and bad kness....and BOOM. Here we are.  I know I am not alone. But here I am...41, SUPER overweight ( Think Ursula) struggling with my emotions and outlook on it all.  Not a day goes by where I don't look in the mirror and hate what I see. Sure there are parts I like..my baby blues for instance. But overall, I don't look at myself and think...yep, I can keep looking like this. Of course, that issue comes down to a serious lack of confidence, struggles with seeing past my own criticisms and appreciating what God created.  I love my life. I have a husband that I adore, 3 sons who are literally the best thing that I have ever accomplished. I am surrounded by some of the most amazing friends I have ever had. I ha...